Milo and Behold

Looking at Milo

misty  ·  Tue, Jan 5, 2016

Rainy day. Milo and I stayed in most of the day, though we did venture out to pick up groceries for dinner. I attempted to use our new slow cooker to make a chicken and pearl barley recipe, but the cook time was wrong, so by the time a few hours had elapsed, the chicken was still quite raw. So, we opted for some Mexican food from Street Taco instead, which Chase was kind enough to go pick up.

During Milo’s naps today, I realized why (I think) she’s been taking such short naps. When I put her down at night, she quickly flips to her tummy and sleeps soundly, but for naps, she’d been staying on her back and waking after 30 minutes or so. Today, she flipped to her tummy during her naps and slept for a bit longer each time.

I spent a lot of time today just looking at Milo. I’m still very aware that my time with her as an infant is incredibly limited. I think about it all the time. Soon, I won’t be able to hold her in my arms all the time. Someday, probably before I’m ready, I won’t be able to nurse her anymore. Very soon she’ll be more mobile and will move away from me, so I won’t be able to just lay her down and look at her. So today, whenever I got a chance, I just looked at my girl. I looked at her while she slept. I looked at her while she played. I held her hand and kissed her feet and raspberried her tummy and just enjoyed every moment of her tinyness.

This evening, as Chase and I stayed up pretty late talking about the future and how we hope things work out, I still had the overwhelming urge to go pick up and hold my girl. I resisted. We even let her cry a bit when she woke up at around 10pm, and she fell back to sleep within a few minutes. But I so wanted to just go in and look at her some more and hold her while she’ll still lets me.

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