Emotions
misty · Sat, Nov 21, 2015Milo is a little bit sick today, though she hasn’t shown any overt signs of feeling bad. She has a lot of snot in her nose, and she’s been sneezing just a bit more than usual today. Also, she hasn’t wanted to sleep very long for naps - at most 30 minutes at a time. So today has been a struggle to give her the rest that she needs in order to get better, but Chase has been my hero, as usual.
Today’s been a pretty emotional day. I woke up not feeling great, and Chase and I ended up talking a lot about what I need to make me feel better, emotionally. Ultimately, I think I realized that I need to be closer to family. Or, I need to live in a place where it’s not quite so difficult to have a baby. I love San Francisco, but some things just get so tiring here: living on the 4th floor and having to lug everything up all those stairs; not having a car and having to take a bus everywhere, which often means it takes 45 minutes to go just a few miles; having such a small space to live and play in; etc. If Chase and I were still childless, these things would be fine. But with Milo here, I just get so tired of all the hassles.
Also, I think I’m having a pretty hard time not having a life of my own now that I’m taking care of Milo full time. I do feel very grateful that Chase and I have the financial means to allow me to have a whole year with our girl. But the transition has been difficult for me. I’ve always been in school or working; I’ve always had my own life, and now my life is wholly wrapped up in Milo.
So Chase and I talked and talked about all of this, in between Milo’s fussing and naps and playtime. We didn’t come to any conclusions, but it felt good to express myself.
Milo Notes:
We put Milo to bed at around 8pm tonight. She is going to sleep more easily these days, but still waking after just a few hours.
Regarding sleep, I think we are soon going to have to try a variation of “cry it out,” but not until Milo is a) feeling better and b) a bit older (maybe after Thanksgiving)
Milo loves the bath now! We had a lot of fun this evening with her; she cooed and flailed around while in the water, and we all smiled a lot. I needed that.
The NoseFrida is the best invention ever.